The thing about moral high ground is that the disappointment is still there. Still felt. Still accumulating. I know because it’s my M.O. I’m in much the same position as you regarding professional and personal fortune (including the monetary aspect), and it’s not in my nature to be the the loud one. The latter has lead to my share of struggles. The former, a commitment to doing the right things in the right way. The frustration, disappointment, and anger are still there under the high ground surface (and it affects me for sure). But I’ve always found my way on my terms, so I try to give that more weight than the shit. And there’s plenty of shit behind the magnanimity—kinda (but not in an influencer way) like a curated IG feed.
The thing about moral high ground is that the disappointment is still there. Still felt. Still accumulating. I know because it’s my M.O. I’m in much the same position as you regarding professional and personal fortune (including the monetary aspect), and it’s not in my nature to be the the loud one. The latter has lead to my share of struggles. The former, a commitment to doing the right things in the right way. The frustration, disappointment, and anger are still there under the high ground surface (and it affects me for sure). But I’ve always found my way on my terms, so I try to give that more weight than the shit. And there’s plenty of shit behind the magnanimity—kinda (but not in an influencer way) like a curated IG feed.
That’s where I’m struggling most. Even when I get to that high point and look for the best, I’m often rotting with frustration internally.
This human in front of me who is facing the actual circumstance is shockingly cavalier. It’s truly genuine, too. He just doesn’t let it affect him.
I’m fascinated by it.